I battled deep depression and intense anxiety for decades. They fed off each other. I was so anxious that I avoided people, and I was so depressed that I just wanted to sleep, eat (junk food), and watch sports and Seinfeld. I was emotionally drained, so I spent a lot of time in isolation. I was letting the world consume me (newspapers, current events, sports, etc.). I also couldn’t hold a job for many years due to severe mental illness. I avoided what had to be done to get out of that rut. It wasn’t healthy.
Looking back, I would do things a lot differently. I wouldn’t live in the past, and I wouldn’t isolate myself. Also, I wouldn’t have a pity party. The pity party comment may sound harsh, but it was partially me feeling bad for myself (nobody likes me, nobody wants to hang out with me, I’m not good enough, etc.).
If I could go back in time, I would have gotten into the Word daily, gone for more walks, hung out with friends and family, and forced myself to do what I dreaded and avoided (social interactions). I am now challenging myself to socialize; pickleball, golf, concerts, and ball games are some of the ways I like to get out and spend time with others.
You will not heal by spending time alone. At the very least, find a good local church for fellowship (and to serve) and a few close friends to hang out with occasionally. As I mention in my book: go to church weekly, join a gym and exercise intensely 3–4 days a week, and work a job conducive to your situation. Sleep well, work hard, eat healthy, and exercise.
And, most importantly, get into the Word daily, even if just for fifteen minutes. Get on your knees and praise, worship, and thank God in submission and humility. He will heal you if you humble yourself and trust in His plan. Obey God and He will reward you, even when it seems hopeless.
After forty-five years of spiritual warfare, I can truly feel the Holy Spirit taking over my mind! You cannot put a price on peace of mind. It is priceless. The greatest gift I’ve ever received.
I promise you that God is bigger than your mental illness. This comes from a man who again spent forty-five years in absolute misery. Have a great week.
Paul
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